you wouldn't believe what happened to me today O_O

I went like, temporarily blind for about a span of 5 mins. no i think more than that, because that happened twice. no figurative speech in here, i'm talking about literally blind. it wasn't a black out because i didn't collapse though i felt like i was going to.

i was shit scared. shit. scared. damn. right. yoooo.

the whole thing started when my earrings accidentally got pulled out when i was sleeping, and it hurt and bled a bit, so i got up and went to the toilet to try and hook my earring back. i only managed to poke it through the hole halfway, and then i started getting dizzy, and my vision blurred and flickered like a tv screen. at that point of time i was like partially blind, but i have that often whenever i sit down too long at one place and it normally goes away after a few seconds. so i fumbled my way back into my room and took off my earring but on my way out i felt so dizzy that i had to lean against a wall to stop myself from losing my balance and collapsing. but instead, because i was so thrown off balance my body weight was shifting from side to side against my will so i ended up knocking my head against the wall a few times. i don't know how that happened but yes it did.

taking the chance while i still had part of my vision (which has already been discoloured and distorted and not to mention filled with wierd patches and holes and just.. like a disfunctional tv screen), i found my way to the kitchen to pour myself a glass of water to drink, hoping that it would make things better. i did everything like half-blind, (my dad came back and told me that i had spilled water over the kitchen table top) and so when i had finished pouring the water, i lost all my vision. YES ALLLL. BLANK. DARK. NOTHING. the bridge of my nose was throbbing, my head dizzy, and i couldn't see even though my eyes were wide open. i drank the water, waited, didn't help. i started to panick and freak out, cause i was scared that i might just lose my vision forever and become blind because it has been a few minutes into the whole thing already and nothing was turning better! i was frantic and everything i started to grope my way around the kitchen, feeling the doorframe, the walls, the corners, everything! but i was too busy chartering energy into finding my way around and to keep myself standing and not collapsing that i didn't notice that time passed. i had NO CLUE where i was in the house or where i was going though i was feeling things i had no idea to walk left or right nothing gave me a clue to where i was! it was about five minutes or so already, (maybe more) and all i thought about was getting to the couch to rest and getting to the phone to call my dad to come home because i couldn't FRICKEN see! like ZOMFG WTF IS HAPPENING!?

then i touched what seemed like my dining table chair and thought, okay i'm going somewhere (because i kept walking) but then i tugged on some cloth and my hands swiped through what felt like photoframes and i thought 'no! this is the fricken piano! all this time i was going nowhere i'm still at the same place near the kitchen!' i was so frustrated i was about to cry, i leaned my head against a wall where i tried to steady myself. i never felt so desperate and helpless (there was no one in the house) before. my vision was still black, no nothing, but in the second where it started to come back and i could make out the grey foggy shape of the couch and the tv, i dashed across the hall and laid on the sofa for a few minutes (okay so maybe it was longer than 5 mins) till my vision slowly came back. i was hot and.. i don't know, scared like shit. losing my sight was no joke, i don't wanna know what it's like to be blind. was rather traumatised later on, and i called kelly up to meet.

then when i met kelly, we went to the expo. we were at expo mrt station and i told her to help me wear my earring cause i had trouble seeing and putting it back on and so she helped me (had a hard time stuffing it through because there was a bloodclot) but strangely again! the minute she got the earring through the hole, i could feel the same dizziness coming back, and YES, i went like half-blind AGAIN. WTF??? then i couldn't stable myself and i went over to the nearest pillar to lean on, but things weren't better and i totally lost my vision again! kelly was almost freaking out cause she had no idea what to do, there i was looking all normal, maybe just slightly dazed but in actual fact i really couldn't see anything! i couldn't hear much either her voice was muffled and stuff and the bridge of my nose was throbbing like whoa, but i wasn't so scared this time because i knew kelly was with me. i think i leaned there for about, i don't know how long, then kelly held my arm and brought me into the expo where there was air-con and it was cooler. on my way in i regained part of my vision back, but at one point in time i felt like my legs were so weak and so dizzy that i wanted to collapse there and then. my vision slowly came back to me as we walked around a bit longer, but damn i was COLD. kelly told me to feel her arm--it was warm--and to feel mine, which felt like, a dead kind of cold. i had no idea i was breaking out in cold sweat and stuff.

it's not funny to lose your vision k. it's different from closing your eyes. it was like... i don't know i was desperate cause i had my eyes were open but i couldn't see no friggin' shit. i was freaked out, and definitely, DEFINITELY SCARED. at one point i was positive that i could be blind forever and... it's much much more terrorising than what it sounds like.

yeh this was one/two shit experience.

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
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A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

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